Archive for the ‘Feelings’ Category
Well I haven’t been blogging for ages now. Blame it on my lifestyle. Or Twitter. Or Facebook. Or the world! But the fact of the matter is that I haven’t been inspired to write for a really long time. Perhaps like I have not been inspired to do several other things that I like, or shall I say liked doing.
I am caught in a stupid rat race. Of beating the inflation (well even that was satisfactory performance during the recessionary times). Of staying at par with who I think are my peers. Of just being one of those millions, if not billions.
The times, they keep changing though. And a series of events lately have made me think quite a bit and re-assess myself. My priorities. My purpose. No clear answers yet.
But I did look back at my life. My professional life too. And in there, I realized that I enjoyed coding the most. It’s been many, many years since I’ve coded. But coding is indeed poetry. Perhaps that was the one thing I REALLY enjoyed doing. The irony is that when I used to code, I wanted to do ‘bigger’ things in life. But the fact of the matter is that the ‘bigger’ things just meant faffing around as much as I could and making stupid PPTs.
Hmm, so anyway. I was discussing this with Sakshi the other day. And she has already given me a task. I need to now build up a website for her as her Valentine Day gift!
Inspiration… Where are you?!
Suddenly I’ve some amazing clarity about what I most want to do professionally this year. Don’t know why but am putting them here – perhaps to look back and reflect; perhaps to get some discipline; perhaps!
Alright, the first thing I want is the HP Circle Award for a submission I made recently. This is in the employee engagement category and I made my submission for iKnow – the knowledge management/communications program I designed and executed for my business group in HP.
The second thing I want to accomplish is setting up a Web 2.0 platform for all HP India employees – the project is in pipeline; have a sponsor… just a matter of doing it; and doing it right.
The third goal is to set up a collaboration space for market research professionals in HP globally. Again, have the signoffs, the mandate… just need to do it.
So ok, let me get started. Will be more than happy if I get all three. Don’t really care about all the other stuff that I’ll have to do along; but as long as these are accomplished,, the next big step should emerge automatically.
And trust me, I’m feeling so much better after really knowing what I want (at least professionally) this year. Hope I get the same clarity personally too!
I was at the gym and was getting irritated with this obnoxious trainer – for lack of customer service and in fact being arrogant. Cut back a few hours and I was getting irritated with things at work; people at work. Huh. Getting irritated with everyone; a gym trainer of all people, imagine!
And then I thought. Take Light. Is anybody worth it. Chillllllll!
Think about such things very often; but I sure hope I can live it – stay unaffected.
I won’t talk about the recent shameful and dreadful terror attack on Mumbai per se – but on what to do next. My thoughts on how to fight this menace; not that I’m an expert… but just my two cents I guess.
We can’t hope for situations like this to get addressed by mere rhetoric or patriotism. We do need an investment in basic police infrastructure so that a Karkare doesn’t die fighting AK56s with a .303 rifle and a half sleeve bullet-proof vest! So that a bunch of boys do not come sailing in boats, land on the Gateway of India and start firing indiscriminately and take hundreds hostage; without the Information Bureau having no clue about it!
We do need a solid security infrastructure to fight this; maybe we already have one. But beyond building infrastructure we need reforms as well – why can’t we pay our armed forces and police better? Why do we raise a hue and cry over the 24 eggs that an army officer gets? You pay peanuts and you get monkeys… right?
And, we need to leave politics behind when it comes to fighting terror. Why do we need a Shivraj Patil as the home minister who has no idea about what he needs to do and has the audacity to continue staying in office despite terror attacks every few weeks? Now that he has quit (or fired) it seems fixed – but is it really? Is it about Patil himself, or is this a larger issue? Why does LK Advani have to say “Oh this is worse than the last time…”?
And, we need to fight corruption. It takes a bicycle, and not a passport, to come from Nepal/Bangladesh to India and then 200 Rs for a ration card. How can we allow this to happen? How can we sell our country for 200Rs? Is this how we grow at 8% year on year I wonder!
The Bottom-line: the main culprit is our so called ‘spirit’ to move on… heck how can we get so thick skinned. We’re concerned today, but will soon forget it like the hundreds other terror attacks in this country before. I think we only deserve it. I liked what Suhel Seth said yesterday on a TV channel – we need surgery not band-aids… we don’t need elections; call a national emergency and fix it NOW…
It’s been 6 years that you’re gone but the memories just keep getting more vivid. Everything I do, everything that happens reminds me of you in some way or the other. I’m trying to become what you wanted me to… I know you’re there helping me out… Always be!
Love you Papa
The love/affection is one sided – the woman either does not reciprocate, or may even abhor you/the whole idea. Still want to marry her? Easy! Just rape her. Yes, you read it right – rape her.
At least that’s what the Orissa High Court has proclaimed (not verbatim of course; as an ‘in-effect’ interpretation). Catch the full story here, but here’s an interesting byte:
…either languish in jail without bail or marry the victim and enjoy the freedom…
Enjoy the freedom. Well, yes thank you sir!
Or does it have any? I don’t have too much data around it but at least my perception is that India is not at all serious about the Olympics. We’re still plagued with mediocrity and politics (wonder what’s this Monika Devi doping case all about). Seems like we’re comfortable with being at the bottom of the medal tally. Sports it seems is not a matter of national pride for us.
Sure. How can a country that still grapples with poverty and illiteracy and unemployment ever take sports seriously? So what if we are a nuclear power? So what if we have some of the richest individuals in the world? So what if have a growth rate of 9%? So what if we are a billion people? So what?
Cricket is what matters to us. So what if we haven’t won even a cricket world cup in the last 25 years? So what if cricket is not even played at the Olympics? So what? We’re the richest cricketing board in the world. Isn’t that enough? Alright. Everyone wants an incentive. What’s wrong if a sport is supported because there is evidence that it makes money for all stakeholders? Who cares about national pride – what’s it worth anyway?!
Here’s what wrong. ‘Greatness’ is a perception. The greater others perceive you to be, the greater you feel. Of course, vice versa holds true!
Just a thought. Probably the spectatcular Beijing Olympics opening ceremony did it to me. Probably the fact that a larger percentage of the 56-strong Indian contingent did not even bother to join the opening ceremony did it to me. Probably the casual attire of Sunita Rao (in a sports jacket of all things; and wonder what she was doing there) did it to me. Probably…
Reacting to the story of Mehtas who want to abort their 6 month old foetus because the baby will be born with a terminal illness. More details here.
I’m not arguing for the Mehtas’, neither against them. A lot of debate is already happening on how ethical it is, should the abortion laws change, etc etc. Here’s my fear – when the child is born, and if the child lives a reasonably normal life, what ‘mental’ trauma will she go through?
All this while everyone has been talking about the potential physical trauma of the child, and the mental/financial trauma for the parents. But won’t the knowledge and evidence of the fact that the parents actually wanted to kill her, play havoc on her mind? How unwanted will she feel? How lonely? And hence, how vulnerable?
But hey, don’t get me wrong here – I’m sure the Mehta’s are going through a lot of stress and in a way they are being fair to the unborn child. Mercy killing, in theory, is not such a bad thing. Abortion, at least in India, is allowed up to 20 weeks of conception – that is also killing in a way; and that’s always selfish, right? One aborts because she does not want that child. Period. What is so different here?
However coming back to the point, if such an ‘unwanted’ child is born, and later knows that she was unwanted, what does she go through…
Watching a sport on TV is like watching pornography. It’s not the real thing. Now come on, I’m not suggesting that watching a sport can ever equal ‘playing it’ (or did you read ‘doing it’!), but I think it’s much better than seeing it on TV. Even though you don’t get such a good view of the ball/players (one can hardly make out who’s who even from VIP seats) and the analysis that you get on TV, still in my opinion nothing beats the live experience for the energy, the madness, the magnanimity and the scale!
Sakshi and I watched the IPL match in Bangalore yesterday. Of course the Royal Challengers lost, but since they were playing Delhi Daredevils it was not all that bad – after all I’m from Delhi and spent almost all my life there! The cheerleaders were really rocking. On TV you miss the real action (cheerleaders dancing) that happens between the overs due to advertisements! And. There was beer and food (for a Rs 2,725 ticket). What else could you have asked for?
In fact Shaan was also performing yesterday, but we missed him by an hour or so it seems. We had booked the tickets online and I had no clue what time he was performing. The match had to start at 8 PM, so I planned to reach by 7, and I did, but Shaan was gone by that time. Parking was of course a pain. And then we had to walk down almost half a kilometer to pickup the tickets (wonder why they couldn’t courier the tickets in advance) and then walk back the same distance to enter our box. It rained between 4 and 6 and we were keeping our fingers crossed. Thankfully the rain stopped just in time, saving the match and our 5.5k!
We had originally planned to take our camera and shoot some, but were told that it’s not allowed. However we saw a lot of people with cameras and wondered how they managed to get their little things in! The match was not so interesting, but we were anyway not expecting any fireworks given Bangalore’s performance in the IPL. Sehwag and Gambhir played really well and so it was some ‘paisa-vasool’!
Net-net great experience.
Oh yeah I am and I feel like kicking myself. For months now I’ve been thinking of an idea to link up the stock market with social networking. I mean using the “wisdom of crowds” to decide which stock to pick. After all don’t we follow tips given by analysts and friends!
Good idea, yeah… but the trouble is that I just kept thinking and someone else executed! Stumbled across CafeStocks which is still in beta doing exactly the same thing that I kept thinking about for several months. I mean it’s exactly the same thing that I was thinking – sharing tips, ranking stocks based on tips received, ranking people who provide tips, the works!
So many times we just think, and think, and do nothing beyond it. I remember Michael Dale (corporate trainer) once saying this, and it’s so apt:
You’ve it all figured out in your mind. Now DO IT!
Hope I take some learning from this and don’t miss the bus the next time I’ve some idea.