Sameer Agarwal

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Probably…

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This is more of a Twitter kind of message. It is 3:15 AM on a Thursday night and despite the (ill-) reputation of having the ability to sleep at any place, and at any time of the day, today is an exception. Probably because Sakshi is away to Delhi and I’m alone . Probably because I’ve setup personal websites for me and us. Probably because I don’t know what I’m going to do with those websites really. Probably because I’m feeling impatient about installing WordPress and moving my blog. Probably because I want to make more money. Probably I want to have sex. Probably because I want to make a difference to the world I live in. Probably because I want to setup an entrepreneurial venture. Probably because I do not know what I want to setup. Probably I want a comfortable life. Probably I’m thinking my life is more comfortable than it ought to be. Probably I want to retire. Probably I want to do so much more in life. Probably….

Probably I need to get myself sorted out for the evening… err.. night. Probably a drink will help. But the fact is I’m suffering a stock-out!

And so the fact is, let probability by damned and let’s face the fact that if I do not sleep now, then I’m going to sleep through the back-to-back meetings in office tomorrow, well today. Probably I will sleep now… Err… probably!

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May 9th, 2008 at 3:43 am

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How long can I resist WordPress?

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Sakshi has been having trouble with her blog name and looking for a solution to export all her posts and comments to a new blog name. This feature is not available on Blogger to my knowledge. So I suggested WordPress to her – which will import all her posts and comments from her existing blogger account. Hurray! So, she’ll be gone from blogger soon.

But now the question is how long can I survive at Blogger? Features on WordPress are just too enticing and in this age of instant gratification how long can one resist? Even though I may never need those features, but guess “alliwantiseverything’, and, that’s the user name I suggested Sakshi!

Afterthought – guess that’s what’s happening to relationships as well. Loyalty takes a backseat in this age of instant gratification and no resistance.

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May 3rd, 2008 at 2:29 pm

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Speak what you write!

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Sakshi recently told me that I’m more romantic/caring on text than in normal life. While I’ve always been aware that I do ‘write’ a little better than I ‘speak’, her statement was a revelation that is probably true as well. Words manifest your emotion – when said better they express the emotion better. When expressed better, they are ‘felt’ better too.

Taking the hypothesis further, a person is judged by the way she expresses – and of course there is no rocket science in this. However what I find an interesting area of study is, that if there is a variance in the way you speak and the way you write (which is the case more often than not) how do you judge a person? That introspection is for some other day, for now back to this variance.

Has it got something to do with the thought-word ratio? When you’re speaking – you either speak after you think, or the other way round. Better speakers have a more moderated thought-word ratio. Mostly, the thought-word ratio is difficult to control at a conscious level (operates at the sub-conscious level). Writing probably gives you the leeway of moderating the thought-word ratio at your own convenience while speaking does not. Maybe!

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April 23rd, 2008 at 6:42 pm

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Fighting Ego and Defensiveness

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I can’t handle criticism. I can’t handle probing. I get defensive. What’s the best way to deal with it? I tried humor. Sometimes when I do see the fun side of things in a situation like this I am not able to play it all through. I don’t like it. Why do I have to always prove ‘it’? Somebody help me..

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July 9th, 2007 at 5:45 pm

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One last chance?

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Is it fair to give one last chance to something you decided can’t work? How do you draw that line — define the ‘last’ chance?

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April 26th, 2007 at 6:01 pm

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I won’t take this shit anymore

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I should rename my blog to ‘The Rant Spot’ or something :) Here’s another one; though I won’t come out with the real truth here. My lovely wife is the only one who should know the real truth! (Guess I wrote this statement as a disclaimer of sorts lest anybody imagines something :)
 
Here it is. A resolve. I WON’T TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE

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April 20th, 2007 at 3:33 pm

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Encouraging February

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Monika had trouble posting a comment to my last post — “Goodbye January”… So she sent me an IM over Sametime — paste that below:

Rawat, Monika i cant post a comment on ur blog :(
Rawat, Monika i wanted to..
Agarwal, Sameer on a call…
Rawat, Monika so ere it is ” just the fact that u have been thinking about it, proves that u are better off than so many who don’t even realize the indiscipline.”
Agarwal, Sameer why couldn’t you?
Rawat, Monika dunno
Agarwal, Sameer sorry was on a call, and theres another one in 7 mins
Rawat, Monika it doesn’t let u
Agarwal, Sameer really?
Rawat, Monika cool..
Rawat, Monika yes
Agarwal, Sameer thats weird
Rawat, Monika yep
Agarwal, Sameer I’ll put it up
Agarwal, Sameer hehe
Rawat, Monika ok
Agarwal, Sameer thans btw
Rawat, Monika :-)
Agarwal, Sameer thanks
Rawat, Monika u welcome

Quite encouraging… hmm!!

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February 1st, 2007 at 12:26 pm

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